Well, i've found out I can never keep up with these things.  I'm too lazy to care about journals.  I'll try I guess. 

I've been working a lot lately, which I guess is no suprise.  I got the job at salsarita's general managing, which is just insane.  I got my own store, with a full crew, and a full bar, and i'm 18 years old!  Someone has lost their mind.  But i'm looking forward to the challenge it's going to be.  It's nice to be back at salarita's and not be cooking.  I mostly just do catering in the morning and then just do paperwork for the rest of the day.  The new restaurant on woodruff road should be open in october/november so you guys should come by and see me sometime.

I helped Cales move in to her dorm this saturday.  It's going to be another year without her here in greenville.  Something I'm sure we can handle, it's just going to be tough getting used to her being gone again.  Our third anniversary is next month.  what is that one?  paper?  jewelry?  iunno.

On the way back from Rock Hill, bubba and I listened to all the things that Hope Prevails had ever recorded.  Something I had not done in a long time.  And it just made me want my band back.  We weren't the greatest band but we were getting so much better.  I miss going to shows and more than anything I miss playing.  I haven't had a reason to get behind a drum set since our last show which was a couple months ago.  That alone is depressing.  Maybe one day Don will come back and we can pick back up were we left off. 

Well now is the time of year were everyone is going back to college.  All my friends from highschool are back at colleges far away, some of them i got to say goodbye to.  But most of them I did not.  This year was so much different than the last, because everyone came back from college with different attitudes and different personalities and I was still the same as when they left.  It's hard to hang on to a friendship that really isn't there anymore.  Things change and I realize that, I'm just tired of trying to hang on to someone solely because they have a place in my past.  It's too much heartache. 

People will probably be more responsive to these journals if I talk to them directly.  I love you cales.  I miss you stephanie.  I miss you katherine.  have fun at college jamie.  have fun being drunk don, come home soon.  i heart you jeremy.  Kara, take back the friendship.  Jon Willy i'll be seeing you soon, Ryan you too.  Kendra you need to visit.  Phil we're starting a band.  Casey, you need to go back to school.  And Bubba, i'll see you in my bed tonite.

fuck yeah i am still holding on
making mountains out of molehills
trading moments in for memories
these days still mean everything to me

NYC was an amazing time.  I'm not going to post pictures.  Jeremy Ray should, so just wait for that.

I quit screen-printing and I have a new job as of monday.  I'm excited.  I'm going to be rolling in the jack.

When Cale's leaves to go back to school i'm going to kick myself in the face.

that is all.

Fucking Bane.

Highdeffall.

well, the hope prevails demo is done.  and it's the fucking shit.  if you want to hear it, you can go to our website I think.  And if you would like a copy, you can e-mail me. 

Other than that, things are good.  Work still sucks, and i'm still madly in love.  And that's all that matters.

( be strong, weary wolf )

I hate working.
I hate when Caley is gone.

but hp in the cut is going to be recording in a couple of weeks.  so that's going to be awesome good times.  i'm really looking forward to that.  so everyone should come and get that when it's done.  anyway, i gotta go make burritos.  and shit.

( drawing blanks )

I haven't updated the ole' live journal here in a while.  Mostly because I have little to nothing to update about.  I've really just been working constantly.  I haven't thought about much, or at least not enough to need to update.  I just miss Caley.  I guess that's pretty much all there is.  That plus weird dreams that make me sad, and fucking burritos.  fucking burritos.

Quote of the Night -

Cowhead:  So how many times a day do you think about sex?

Me and Bubba:  uhmm, iunno.  how about you?

Cowhead:  I think about deer huntin in the fall.

I just got in from Rock Hill where I spent yesterday and today.  I helped Caley move in to her dorm.  It was the longest day ever, but I had a pretty good time.  I'm glad she is finally settling in and finding new things.  It's still hard to believe that I can't see her whenever I want to.  And that she's going to be off discovering so many new things and new ideas while I'm still going to be sitting right here.  It doesn't feel right being here in Greenville anymore.  I feel like I should be in Rock Hill.  I wish I was.

Jeremy and Kara gave me a place to stay last night which was super awesome.  Yeah, you know, Jeremy Ray and Kara Batista?  (oo, i dropped something.  it's a name, can you hold it for me?)  But it was really cool of them because I probably would have died if I had tried to drive home.  We went and saw Garden State and I dug it.  Good times.  I was going to stay up there again tonite, but I felt like i just needed to be home.  Or else It would just keep getting harder and harder to leave. 

I need to find new reasons for doing the same old things
I need to find a new place to cry the same old tears
I need to find a new home to hang my same old head
I need to find a new hope to get me past the same old fears